I miss cooking...

I miss cooking.... I have decided that I want to get back into it. and I thought you should know!!

Let the journey begin!

My 22 month old just got diagnosed with this elusive syndrome. First they thought it was autism . Yes, my little bundle is developmentally delayed he still is not walking even though he is trying like hell.  I don't know why everybody wants to put a label on people I just think he likes having gullible mamma do all the heavy lifting.
Well doctors know best right? Or do they??? Because of this delay his pediatrician decided he should go to a pediatric neurologist they drew blood and he peed in a bag, they watched him play then started talking about some thing to why he is not in line with his peers.
So basically he is not autistic, I was on the edge of my seat we had spent  the last 4 month with everyone making references to the autism spectrum and even if he was he would be on the lower end. I was not upset at autism I was upset at the box they where trying to stuff him in.
Ok so long story short or is it too late?? My
Baby who will always be just a quirky kid has something called Velocardiofacial syndrome VCFS for short , part of a specIfIc chaIn of hIs DNA Is broken  And I have to become an expert in it. Per the neurologist orders of course. it's symptom specific which basically means what ever is a symptom of his syndrome we will try and fix it if that's surgery we do it if we work with physical occupational, therapist we do it, speech therapy we are on it..
So where do we go from here?? Well he is working with Birth to Three which by the way is a fabulous organization and he now has physical therapy along with speech therapy and we are going from there. It a long road ahead but... let our journey begin!
Check out some information...
Www.birth23.org
Www.vcfs.org

I just I just I just dont remember what where we talking about!!

Honestly i don't know where my head has been at lately i cant seem to keep my mind on 1 thing for to long i don't know if it is the fear of becoming a mother or the fact that my once OK bank account is dwindled down to a scary place that i said i would ever have again.. How come life chugs? I would really like to know 1 minute you are fine going along and then it tops itself with either the greatest thing or the what the @#$% just happened like i had a job then i didn't anymore for 9 months i was so low i honestly felt the dirt. then i get a job but it is the job from hell just to be fair i went in with my eyes wide opened then i got pregnant and had to stop working because it was starting to effect my health(baby first and all). now i feel  so confused about the whole situation that is my life i fair i don't know what i will do.  I want so much but i have only a little... Only there is no time for worrying my little man is coming very soon and i have to deal however that works.All though i do sort of feel like that something is keeping me from failing miserably cant put my finger on it but really... i just i just i just i just don't remember what where we talking about?       PEACE 

whats wrong with people today???

I really feel like i have to write this down cause i am truly blown away...... I live on your run of the mill street that has many spaces to park and because its Sunday there are no space so i had toi park in one of the lots on the street. Now i park there all the time and so do many other people who live here. So tell me why there was broken corona bottles on the ground like i live in a dumpster. Its pissing me off to the point that i want to go to the other people that p[ark there that there is a problem with our situation Our parking situation that is... what a messed up weekend man maybe i am just griping but with the fact that the people in my area DON'T know how to drive and the parking situation today i just want to like scream or something..... Lately people have been really shady and i cant figure none of this shit out.... Sometime its just is like what the fuck is going on with people theses days!!

35 yr old cook single who will soon have a baby who's an Intuitive Baller!

Well i know i have not written in a while but some crazy changes have happened and truth be told i have been getting my mind right..... I also know that i dont have much direction on this blog general concerns more than anything else a bitch page a online diary and i want it to stop today..... I am certain with the things going on i can pick a subject elaborate stay on subject and go from there....So my top[ic} will be what my life is write now   " 35 yr old cook and single that will soon have a baby???

Ya know its real funny where life can take you one minute your just doing your thing and the next minute everything you know think and love will change in a millisecond good and bad.... I am pleased to say that after giving up on the thought of having children that i have finally concieved  with the most unlikely of people one of my best friends and even though i know that we will never be together in that sence that we made what is sure to be a beeutiful human being seems perfect almost.... 

I mean i would love to have someone in my life right now and have a child but i think this is a reasonable second to Ozzie and Harriet. Up until now relationships and me don't go together i think i go after the wrong guys unavailable emotionally to wrapped up in themselves to give a damn about what anybody else is going threw namely you... no one needs selfish people around them that's why i believe that my situation is optimal someone to talk shit with and hang around with who you can tell almost everything that wont judge you and loves you no matter what without where have you been we need to talk heavy happy one minute miserable the next hassle that many of my relationships have been....\

So life is changing i feel that i have waited as long as i can and found out enough about myself to proceed to the next level family.... Time to start my own... I have partied and loved and cried and wondered learned i have lost i have found i have grown up... it's time... and i am pretty happy about it. right now i truly believe that life has endless possibility's and i really would love to see who and what is next.

(2/2) phone.... ;-) bare with me! And what the hell does that mean anyway! Bare Bear.. Why does one work and not the other no wonder the english lang.is tough

(1/2) I am t3rying something new i dont really like the direction of this blog. So im gonna try something different while using this great link from my