Well i know i have not written in a while but some crazy changes have happened and truth be told i have been getting my mind right..... I also know that i dont have much direction on this blog general concerns more than anything else a bitch page a online diary and i want it to stop today..... I am certain with the things going on i can pick a subject elaborate stay on subject and go from there....So my top[ic} will be what my life is write now " 35 yr old cook and single that will soon have a baby???
Ya know its real funny where life can take you one minute your just doing your thing and the next minute everything you know think and love will change in a millisecond good and bad.... I am pleased to say that after giving up on the thought of having children that i have finally concieved with the most unlikely of people one of my best friends and even though i know that we will never be together in that sence that we made what is sure to be a beeutiful human being seems perfect almost....
I mean i would love to have someone in my life right now and have a child but i think this is a reasonable second to Ozzie and Harriet. Up until now relationships and me don't go together i think i go after the wrong guys unavailable emotionally to wrapped up in themselves to give a damn about what anybody else is going threw namely you... no one needs selfish people around them that's why i believe that my situation is optimal someone to talk shit with and hang around with who you can tell almost everything that wont judge you and loves you no matter what without where have you been we need to talk heavy happy one minute miserable the next hassle that many of my relationships have been....\
