Check point!

I just heard the most honest line i ever heard and i quote"Do you ever have the feeling that everyone is having more fun than you?" " Cause They Are."....... Excuse me?

 I have thought about this and its true i seem to be the biggest wet blanket there is Right?I never thought of it like that i always thought that I was having fun sort of! I mean i just recently realized that i never give everything i got i always seem to stop short i mean complete stop Stopping before telling you how i really feel cause i think ill hurt your feelings... What?.. Why am i thinking of your feelings clearly you just pissed me off.... I mean what's that all about anyway right?. Since i just heard the most honest thing i ever heard. I want to give more let the world see who i am and where i come from whos's my kin...:) and whos's my foe.:(

Why Not.. I recently have been thinking on being completely honest with myself everything and everyone in every aspect of my life... I just feel like i have been lying to myself and the world for sometime now And it has been Bullshit I have been full of shit It is a complete brain fuck to write this down .

  It was really Auto Pilot through life it hasn't been roses ya know I was holding everything back never knew how to ask Fo more please SIR.. May I have Some mOre.. I would hold nothing back... Oh what a tangled web we weave stuff!! To tell you the truth(ha ha) It kinda of works.. I mean what in the hell do i care as long as i don't hurt you im not talking cutting you down not brutal more educated honesty.. Or better informed honesty I understand that i will say anything and everything on my mind about a said situation barring cruel spiteful jealously driven little white lie honesty  for every action, reaction get it it is what it is and thats all it is ? It seems way more complicated in words.

   Also i want to have more fun and i figure what ever the reason for the stopping short cant be as bad  as  it already has been... and life is just getting shorter and shorter and when your primary thought becomes what death would be like its time for a change.... Let's just say i hit a checkpoint today!! I want to care But im not getting any hits so thats done now So i dedicate the song "No ones loves me, Neither do i" By favorite band at the moment them crooked vultures...them crooked vultures...  I have given you the keys to the kingdom of truth what you do with them is strictly up too you i have made my choice..I get it, Point Taken! What are you gonna do?

Better Late Then Never or BLTN for short!

Well Kids i did it i got a job. Get this it's at a place i used to work at. I am pretty happy about it so i will say that staying tuned will not only keep up to date but it also makes you a pretty chill person to read thru all my overanalyzed blog....(I thank you in advance for reading)... I know i have been a bit random in my post i just figure if it doesn't sound like me then it don't sound like me ya know(senorita random, thats me)..

        OOOOOOOH HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!         

I am there fore making my declaration to whoever is reading that i pledge to write at least 1 blog a week for the remainder of 2010.... OR at least im gonna try. I also plan on having a direction for said blog also. I figure when you clean the skeletons out of that dusty closet and live your true self there has bound to be something to talk about. I mean shit i did just get a job after 8 bloody months without 1... I don't know why im holding my tongue SHEEIT!*roll's her neck and sucks her teeth*.. But i did..








 It was hard and dare i say Im starting to feel alittle better about my financial situation.. Im getting to cooler and cooler places and taking pictures seems to be my latest obsession i'm just glad that its not another bad relationship. Life in general is looking pretty damn good I think i will close with thatoooooh yea and i'm well on way to finally losing the excess baggages im down 25 pounds and i really like myself right now and it really couldn't be going smoother(This is where you mark my words)) Its cool That's the story and i'm sticking to it..Later!