I just I just I just dont remember what where we talking about!!

Honestly i don't know where my head has been at lately i cant seem to keep my mind on 1 thing for to long i don't know if it is the fear of becoming a mother or the fact that my once OK bank account is dwindled down to a scary place that i said i would ever have again.. How come life chugs? I would really like to know 1 minute you are fine going along and then it tops itself with either the greatest thing or the what the @#$% just happened like i had a job then i didn't anymore for 9 months i was so low i honestly felt the dirt. then i get a job but it is the job from hell just to be fair i went in with my eyes wide opened then i got pregnant and had to stop working because it was starting to effect my health(baby first and all). now i feel  so confused about the whole situation that is my life i fair i don't know what i will do.  I want so much but i have only a little... Only there is no time for worrying my little man is coming very soon and i have to deal however that works.All though i do sort of feel like that something is keeping me from failing miserably cant put my finger on it but really... i just i just i just i just don't remember what where we talking about?       PEACE