Mountain V. Molehill

I am feeling a surge of creativity that i honestly haven't had in awhile ..... I kind of missed it.i have a project in mind i kinda want to make a mosaic hmm! Life right now has become quite strained. I feel like i am fighting for a position which i already have and am not budging on. My friend is still staying with me and i has become a bit complicated... Nothing i cant handle of course just complicated. I kind of feel his presence has thrown off my house's chi a bit which is good and bad i guess... I really like his company but 24/7 is even a bit much for me, its putting a strain on my life in other ways. I don't have any personal space or free time and for a creative nut like myself it is really hard( That's what she said)...hahaha. I am not the most affectionate person in the world  and i know this fact, i don't try to hide or act a different way so when i am around affectionate or better overly affectionate people i tend to be uncomfortable and to be uncomfortable in your own space is really rough... There are so many pieces in my life that i truly believe that it is like the makings of a mosaic already so this project seems like a great place to start and i need make something out of it,  maybe a cherry blossom they are truly a beautiful tree to see and the smell is amazing ..maybe in  sea glass......

Go big or go home homie

I am seriously feeling like i have changed somehow, I mean everything is everything but everything feels new How can something be and not be?....

Strange I like it, but change.

I recently let a good friend of mine stay with me until he gets back on his feet. We are alike in alot of ways and i am pretty sure thats why we are friends. He loves to be somewhere new never really enjoying his own company, Always on the move. He just had a pretty bad breakup and a new baby girl all in the last 2 years ooh and moved from the east coast to the mid west  and back to the east coast.....Damn.. I know im not a open spaces kind of girl i love the city the movement the scape's of tower metal and glass.. alive, dirty, real.

I bring this up because i really have grown in the past month have finally found A JOB and after 8 months and the stress. I came out the other side knowing exactly what i want how i want it what it should kind of look like. So uncertainty and doubt no longer dwell in my mind i know and like who i am take me or leave me go big or go home... I truly belive that with experience anything is possible. Age work life....Everything.

Well the balance has shifted with my new vister and i do love him but nothing short of a can do will do attitude is not acceptable. He also dropped on my feet straight  3 day notice. all im tring to say that beacuse there is a age difference between us i can with experience say that i have done somethings and my expertise right now is experienced so coming out the other side does and will happen you just have to learn to  weather the storm and focus on the task at hand....

In short Work Good without the right resources too much time will do nothing but put added stress on an already otherwise good situation. I mean i could of taking a cruise going to mexico, california, arizona... But alas i did not have the funds to support those options So ye of little faith patience is truly a virtue to serenity!!