I just heard the most honest line i ever heard and i quote"Do you ever have the feeling that everyone is having more fun than you?" " Cause They Are."....... Excuse me?
I have thought about this and its true i seem to be the biggest wet blanket there is Right?I never thought of it like that i always thought that I was having fun sort of! I mean i just recently realized that i never give everything i got i always seem to stop short i mean complete stop Stopping before telling you how i really feel cause i think ill hurt your feelings... What?.. Why am i thinking of your feelings clearly you just pissed me off.... I mean what's that all about anyway right?. Since i just heard the most honest thing i ever heard. I want to give more let the world see who i am and where i come from whos's my kin...:) and whos's my foe.:(
Why Not.. I recently have been thinking on being completely honest with myself everything and everyone in every aspect of my life... I just feel like i have been lying to myself and the world for sometime now And it has been Bullshit I have been full of shit It is a complete brain fuck to write this down .
It was really Auto Pilot through life it hasn't been roses ya know I was holding everything back never knew how to ask Fo more please SIR.. May I have Some mOre.. I would hold nothing back... Oh what a tangled web we weave stuff!! To tell you the truth(ha ha) It kinda of works.. I mean what in the hell do i care as long as i don't hurt you im not talking cutting you down not brutal more educated honesty.. Or better informed honesty I understand that i will say anything and everything on my mind about a said situation barring cruel spiteful jealously driven little white lie honesty for every action, reaction get it it is what it is and thats all it is ? It seems way more complicated in words.
Also i want to have more fun and i figure what ever the reason for the stopping short cant be as bad as it already has been... and life is just getting shorter and shorter and when your primary thought becomes what death would be like its time for a change.... Let's just say i hit a checkpoint today!! I want to care But im not getting any hits so thats done now So i dedicate the song "No ones loves me, Neither do i" By favorite band at the moment them crooked vultures...them crooked vultures... I have given you the keys to the kingdom of truth what you do with them is strictly up too you i have made my choice..I get it, Point Taken! What are you gonna do?
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